Well, here we are. No more weekends before the big one. Now the self doubt is creeping in and every time I think of this (every hour of every day) or see something about it on the telly, my blood runs cold. Is that normal?? A few weeks ago I was really looking forward to this, now I am terrified! I have just been having a read of Carly's blog (really entertaining - have a look here) and she seems to be having similar thoughts / fears. That goes someway to making me feel better as I'm not the only one.
Like Carly, I am starting to get worried in case I don't complete it cos my legs have decided to stop functioning and then thinking about how I would feel. To be honest, I would be gutted. All I have done over the past few months is go on about this like a new parent talking about their baby. I have told friends, family, clients, suppliers and basically anyone who will listen about what I'm doing. It's been all over Facebook, and my friend Brian has been hounding his contacts (thanks Brian!). I don't know what I would do if I had to go back to everyone and say that I didn't do it.
BUT STOP! That's not going to happen. I will complete it. May not be the fastest but I'll do it. That's what all this training is for isn't it?? I need to chill...
My thoughts are now turning to after the Marathon. I will have my life back again!! I know I shouldn't think about it like that but all this really does take over. I don't know how people who do this regularly have time for relationships, work or a social life! But it's all in a good cause.
I'm going to have my last longish run this evening. I had hoped to do it yesterday but my leg was still a little bit sore so I figured the most important thing to do at this stage is to make sure that is better and not scupper my chances on Sunday.
I think I'll post something on here every day now until Saturday. It will probably be more of the same but I want this as a record of how I was feeling in the lead up to the day.
See you tomorrow :-o)
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